Speak to me...

It Is War Time!

After years of battle, general after general, fallen due to casualties of war. Some dead some injured. They have tired and fell, they have won numerous battles and equipped with them countless of war experience but there is not war without casualty.

Today, yet another casualty from war, again this time round a highly look up to general that taken charge of me. A general that teaches me many art of war, and time was well spent with her, good time and bad time.

After her, no one else dare took up this challenge to fight again this long and lasting battle. The emperor decide to raise the white flag and order to retreat. One daring soldier stood up, shouted to the emperor, "Your honour Sir, I think the chances of winning this battle is still high! let us not give up! Let me take over and lead this war and within a year I will prove it to everyone that we are the almighty!". Soon roar of all fellow men begin to raise as the field of soldiers starts cheering, "WE ARE THE ALMIGHTY". As the emperor sees that there is still hope, he passes the armor of the general to this one daring soldier. That soldier was me.

Now, after many years as a soldier it is finally a time for me to show my abilities. I have to take up this opportunity and this is my best time, is now or never. I have never show the ability to lead before, not that I don't have the quality in me, but because we as a soldier we play a part as a soldier. I never want to interfere with my general. Today no one can do this, no other than me and this is the best time I prove my worthiness to my fellow war mates.

This is the time! I am preparing for WAR! Check and handed over duties, fed my men, treat injuries, count the weapons, sharpen the swords, make new weapons, and of cause lay my strategy and I am set to go! Before the battle I am going to understand all my men and weapon, study the terrain and boost morale to my fellow soldier and this is what I have done the whole day today and what I have to do for the next few days. I have to keep it in mind that I CAN DO IT!

6/23/2010 01:11:00 AM

Solely Dedicated to My Beloved Carol Jie

To my Beloved Carol Jie,

Finally, the time has come, you are leaving me and the rest of our company and including some irritating boot lickers. Leaving this small company yet big political environment. We dare not say that you did not contribute to our life and the company, but you have indeed contribute a lot. Maybe not to everyone of us, but one thing for sure, I gain very much from you. So much that just a few words will never be enough to describe all the advise, teaching and caring to show that how greatly I appreciate all of your kind guidance and care. As a result, I walk alone last night to search for things that reminds me of you that you have taught me as gifts for you.

First of all, there is a car, Suzuki Swift Sport. It is not a real car but this car represent an important step I took into the real world and with you kind help and support I have understand so much that my father's care is finally been seen to me. With you support I finally sold the car away. But this car will always be so attached to me as it reminds me of the past, a past that I will never forget. And of cause the past that you have supported me emotionally too.

Next, a pen craved with your name on it. this pen reminded me all your teaching to me, from how to start a conversation to how to hold a conversation, from the way we should do sales to how we should protect our own interest, from day to day things like work smart instead of work hard, and the important to take note! Don't worried Carol Jie, I will not forget this kind advise to take notes, and all those you have taught me. You and your teaching will always be in my heart. I have got to tell you this, you are the best manager in my life!

Last gift is not really about your teaching, but the way it reminds me about you and for your good luck in whatever you do in the future. A hand phone strap with Mahjong tiles. Is a winning set of 7 pairs gamed. 7 stands for luck and all lucks should come in pairs. one of the pair for you and another one for Melvin Kor, and wish both of you will have fairytale like, happy ever after.

I hope I have really said all I always wanted to tell you and like one of the cards that mention, It's difficult to see you leave, but the hardest part comes after you're gone. I have great responsibility to hold now and more is coming, but what I really got to miss is your nagging and your let it all out laughter. Well, when the time has come and you have your own future to pursuit and of cause to start your little family, I don't mean Blackjack! You know what I mean... ;)

With all my heart, I sincerely wishes you all the best in whatever things in life that you are going to do in the future, good health and a speedy recovery for your injury. Give you all the luck I could give for fortune and blessing. Please don't forget me and the rest of our secret clan, outing will be organize and hope for your present!

My always Carol Jie,
Si Wei

6/22/2010 09:36:00 AM

Si Wei The Fortune Teller

Recently many things happen, not as what we can see from the surface but all in my mind. So many thoughts when in and out of my little brain, trying to figure out my headings and to set myself upright and to see someone getting what they want. I feel like I am so good at predicting people's movement. Every step they took was well known early beforehand. I feel like I am watching a show that is directed by me, without me telling what they need to do, they did it in the exact same way I foresee.

The show has started and it will be going on for awhile, I still have some prediction going on, by I am not going to tell anyone. Is better to not saying anything then saying the wrong things. I will just wait and see if my future prediction is correct. If so, I am going to set up a table somewhere down Orchard Road to give fortune telling.

I am very satisfy with this current situation. I know both of them will be good, a nice guy and a nice girl makes an almost flawless match. Keeping in mind that everyone have their good and bad as no one is perfect, I still hope they will be good.

After so much of other people. I have my own stress. Work, business, money, people, friendship, relationship, self-improvement, etc etc... so much more. I feel that my little brain will soon burst if I don't deal with them one by one.

Alright, I have written lots of nonsense already, time for bed. Good night peeps!

6/21/2010 12:25:00 AM

Fate

Fate and fate that is.

6/15/2010 12:31:00 AM

You Would Have Understood Me (Ernest Dowson. 1867–1900)

YOU would have understood me, had you waited;

I could have loved you, dear! as well as he:

Had we not been impatient, dear! and fated

Always to disagree.

What is the use of speech? Silence were fitter:

Lest we should still be wishing things unsaid.

Though all the words we ever spake were bitter,

Shall I reproach you, dead?

Nay, let this earth, your portion, likewise cover
All the old anger, setting us apart:

Always, in all, in truth was I your lover;

Always, I held your heart.

I have met other women who were tender,

As you were cold, dear! with a grace as rare.

Think you, I turned to them, or made surrender,
I who had found you fair?

Had we been patient, dear! ah, had you waited,

I had fought death for you, better than he:

But from the very first, dear! we were fated

Always to disagree.

Late, late, I come to you, now death discloses

Love that in life was not to be our part:

On your low lying mound between the roses,

Sadly I cast my heart.

I would not waken you: nay! this is fitter;

Death and the darkness give you unto me;

Here we who loved so, were so cold and bitter,

Hardly can disagree.

6/14/2010 03:38:00 PM

If I were an animal what would I be....

I remembered when I was young I had a trip with my family to Tioman Island in Malaysia, a place with sky, sea, trees and beaches. A place so nice and relaxing, no school work, no trouble (back then, my life biggest stress was studies). So my whole family when to the island for some getaway from the busy city lifestyle. We could canoe everyday, play Bingo game or just swim in the Crystal clear lagoon. We hike the mountain to the waterfalls, ride on banana boat and tour around the island. That was a short getaway but was an unforgettable one.

With us, there were another family, a close friend of my father. Together we stayed in that island for 3 days. But I felt like I have been living there for awhile much longer than 3 days. It was such a nice holiday and my soul get stuck there even when I'm back in Singapore. I have been dreaming of going back, I have been thinking of the life there every time i felt lonely or stressed. But what I will never forget is, someone asked me a question. "If I were an animal what would I be."

I remember this question was asked by someone around my age back then when I was around 7 or 8-year-old. But until now I'm still thinking of this. This was a simple and naive question but the answer is link psychologically in our being. The way I answered this question when I was young makes me behave or walk toward my goal in the future. Makes me understand how I see my future, might be what I am now or might be far from reaching. But that could be inborn in me. I am made to fulfill this goal since I'm young. My mind is set to it and it never changes. Until now and I'm still faithfully thinking.... Why I choices Eagle as what I want to be.

"I choice to be an eagle, yes eagle and I must emphasize, is eagle not bird." That was how I answered many years back when nothing other than having fun interests me. I was being questioned back, "why eagle, and not bird." and my answer was, "because eagle fly higher than the bird, eagle see better than the bird and eagle is fiercer than the bird. I want to be eagle because I want to fly freely like the eagle, go where ever he wants and do what ever he wants. see things high from above and attack their pray fast and swift. Brave in all situation and fight against all odd. That's why I want to be an eagle."

Yes, that was what I said and I'll never forget those words, and the place that picture me in my memories. But with that, now I realize that eagles was what I choose, but eagles are lonely animal, fly and hunt on their own. Which is what I feel now... Do I still want to be an eagle now?

6/14/2010 02:14:00 AM

A Day Gone Wrong

If he is so going to chase after you, why should I interfere with him impressing you.

It was suppose to be a well planned Sunday. To meet up my partners to open up a corporate bank account and than have dinner with my friends. But dinner was spoiled...

First was one of them could not make it, but when I ask another if she would want to carry on with the plan, her voice was so reluctant to do so. Still, I need to pass them my passport for the check in to our cruise trip this Wednesday so I travel back home to get it which I have forgotten to bring it along with me. Than I head down to her house, thinking that we could have dinner and chat for awhile. But while I was about to reach, she called and told me she was at Suntec City. Without further questioning, I make a turn and headed down not knowing that he was with her until my call before reaching. From the past experience I understand that he is interest in her, so why should I be caught in between the two destroying they day?

Another part of me I was so angry. Why wasn't me well informed? She could have told me that She is meeting him and they are heading somewhere else right at the beginning. I was so not happy for this last minute decision to make me go around the country just to pass her the passport and to see someone impressing a girl. So I made a choice, I went back home...

It could be that jealousy in me, but the thing is, I don't want to spoil this friendship between me and him. From my experience in the past there will not be good ending. So stepping back is what I should do, at least for now.

6/13/2010 02:32:00 AM

The World Spin In Double Time

Recently things around me changes in a very fast pace, things happened before my eyes and it's gone before I need to blink, 1 day I'm very close to all my friends and the next moment we are the worst enemy. People get into relationship and a flash of a lightning and it was gone. Life is so unpredictable nowadays, I can't even see the whole picture and the slide changes. Why are we in such a hurry?

Is this due to our fast paced society to make us move in lightning speed? Or are we aging too fast so we have to grab whatever we have and live with it? Is there rational in it? We have people looking for love in this kind of speed, grab a girl and move on, no worry if you grab a wrong one just grab and go. It sounds like the world is coming to an end, or maybe some war is going to start. Or is it some kind of challenge to those people? I don't understand, really.

Yes I know the important of having a girlfriend, but will we die if we don't have one? Should we be desperate to find one? Isn't a few close friends enough to satisfy our needs of belonging, our social needs? Why do we need a girlfriend in such a hurry manner? That makes me wonder.

6/11/2010 02:11:00 AM

Horoscope

23rd November to 21st December

Symbol: The Archer
Ruling Planet: Jupiter
Quality: Mutable
Element: Fire
Basic Trait: I Perceive
Closest Metal: Tin
Lucky Day: Thursday
Lucky Colors: Beige, Bronze, Blue, Indigo, Purple, Red and Violet
Lucky Gems: Turquoise
Lucky Flowers: Pink Carnations and Dandelions

Sagittarius has the symbol of 'The Archer'. The people born under this zodiac sign just don't know how to give compliments. Their compliment will be like "You are looking so good in this dress. I bet no one can make out that huge beer belly" of yours. It's not that they are trying to offend you or something. A Sagittarian tries his best to be cheerful and friendly, but fails miserably. On top of that, he won't understand why you are so annoyed with him. It will help to remember that his personality traits do not include wickedness and he never meant to insult you.

Even though his words seemed to be too harsh, they were spoken in total innocence. Even when he tries to correct his mistake, he will add to the damage already done. The icing on the cake is that a Sagittarian believes that he is the most diplomatic person on the face of this planet. Sagittarius people are very sharp and are an interesting fusion of humor, intellect and sizzling drive. Vices like deceit and dishonesty do not form a part of their characteristics profile. They are restless and find it difficult to be still for too long.

They love animals and take good care of them. A typical Sagittarius fears nothing and, at times, may get attracted to danger. He is not the one to keep his thoughts to himself. Infact, what is in his mind and heart will instantly be on his lips. He is frank and innocent like a child. He has many friends and all of them are truly loyal to him. Nobody can remain angry with a Sagittarius for too long. This is because even though he may have said some, not so nice, things to you, he never had the intention of hurting you. He was completely oblivious of its effects and you know it.

If he ever sees you down, he will be the first person to cheer you up. It's just that he miserably fails in that too. However, every now and then, Sagittarians will turn up with such a compliment that will instantly lift up your spirits. Then, you will fall in love with them again. They are completely extroverted, very talkative and totally straightforward. A Sagittarian will usually come across as a very cheerful and pleasant person. However, he has a violent temper also, which is aroused when people try to push him around or try to get too close.

An unfair accusation or an insult to his honesty also ignites his temper. After his temper has cooled down, he will try to make amends and even apply ointment at the eye he blackened. Sagittarians are rebels at heart and adhering to social norms is not their cup of tea. They love to perform before an audience and usually seek a career in the show business. Travel excites them and religion interests them. Just like a child, a Sagittarius is naive, fearless and optimistic and dislikes responsibilities.

Too much boundation can make him unhappy as well as rebellious. Mood spells are completely alien to him. Almost every Sagittarian was born with a gambling streak and needs to be very careful about the same. He easily falls in love, but commitment and marriage is something, which he is not too comfortable with. He will go on thinking about it, considering it thoroughly and may still end up with a mistake. Some of the most unpleasant personality traits of a Sagittarius include sarcasm, weirdness and the inability to keep a secret.

However, almost all of these traits can be overcome, if he is determined. He will give you a loan, without even bothering to ask for its repayment. Lonely, destitute and helpless always get his help. Sagittarians have excellent memories and can remember even the smallest incidents of their lives, with the minutest of details. At the same time, they can easily forget things like where they left their car keys or wallet or handkerchief. A Sagittarius is incapable of deceit and if at all he tells a lie, he always ends up getting caught. He makes you laugh, is fun to be with, brightens up the day and can make even the impossible dreams come true.

why is this so true?

6/09/2010 11:36:00 PM

A Ride of An Emotional Roller Coaster

What are you thinking? I just can't figure it out. In the first place if you never plan to hurt her you should have tell her from the start what you plan to do, why what till a few missed call away, then you start worrying? Or why wait till you settled your things, then you try to calm her down? At the end of the day, she's cool and you want to see her but, only a glance of her face and you tell her off and back to your friend? Come on man, what are you thinking? please don't cheat on her emotionally if you are not wholeheartedly of her if that is not the case, please think before you do and not do as you like.

p.s: I don't know how you think but if someone make me cried for nothing I am gonna get real angry.

6/07/2010 12:35:00 AM

Anger Management

Hmmm..... I guess a topic for anger management in a relationship will be a interesting post. Shall do some research and publish and article on my blog. Stay tune~

6/04/2010 10:43:00 PM

We have great minds!

Great minds think alike, that's because I just found someone tonight.

It is all started from dinner...
We were talking about relationship and money or to be particular our vision of our own future, how do we want it to be and how it make us think that way. Many many things we talk along that line which I found that most if not all is what I have thought, felt and understood now. It is surprising to know that there is girl at your age knows such a thing and I am so glad I know you.

After a night of talking many things when round and round in my mind, so much that I actually didn't know how to explain in simple words. I have some views and opinion but I just don't know how to tell or I shouldn't say for some reason. Some time silence is the best conversation.

In conclusion, For your current situations, he is suitable for you, both have the same thinking but there will always be loop holes to invite arguments, come to this, I need to clarify that though we have common thinking, which I was also looking for quite some time and I also like to have a girlfriend like you but I will never interrupt with your situation as I don't need a girl to make me complete. I like my freedom and I think I have just found a soul mate. I don't want to trade a soul mate for a girlfriend for the time being.

Next, family, the first time I heard this from someone that my dad actually shows love in a different way I was just like how both of you behave tonight. I did not believe that, and some time I really hate what he did to me. Until today my perspective changes. I don't understand your family but I think that every parents love their children, this is the nature of humans.

Lastly, that crazy girl. Some people just don't get it. Or like I say still don't know how to think properly. I know how irritating to have such a friend, I had some too. But don't blame on them, they just need some attention and sense of belonging but in a wrong way.

6/03/2010 12:25:00 AM