Today, April Fool, I was one, the biggest fool at the very first hour of this day. allowing a jokingly statement strike my life with heavenly lighting and the very next moment after I recover from my shock, I look down and saw the greeting of April Fool. I was being fool!

In that moment of surprise, I know that I still love you so much! So much so that I took it for real, my soul fly high up into the sky, the day finally arrived after my long waiting, but! Suddenly, I woke up and realise, you won't do that, it MUST be a joke!

I always ask myself, what will I do or how will I feel if finally after so many difficulty you accepted me. Now I know the feeling and dyingly hope to feel it again. I know I will never have a chance.....