Time flies! It has been 3 months after my last entry. I was so lazy to blog and I might as well don't even care about blogging anymore. But today, I feel like doing so. Getting back to my usual routine after doing something different for 3 months. That was some thing I have not done before and finally I felt how many people feel. The meaning of love and losing.

This, as everyone knew it, was not as easy as anyone can see from the outside, being in a relationship is totally different matter of being with friends amongst us. Because we care for our love ones, things will ended up into a quarrel if we cannot get a common understanding. But for friend, even if we think our friend has a different point of view we just take it as, 'well I guess that you'... Something that shouts YOU! (Thank Ms Ris)

Other than that, trying to intrude into your partner's world is another challenge we have to face. Everyone live in a different background if not so different way of thinking or idea. It might be OK for you to think this way, but it might not for the other party. Learning to give is important, learning to take is well more important. In order to give we must first learn how to take. When we gave too much and never felt the return the relationship will not work. So we have to understand how the other party had given in in and we should let them know that we are giving in, order for them to know.

I realize this but easy said then done. I'm still learning...

Also, Changing for someone you love will be difficult too. We have been living for more then a decade as what we are, including minor changes little by little, time after time realizing slowly, bit by bit then we change a little bit at a time until what we are today. Someone that we think this is what we suppose to be. But because of someone we love, we wanted to change for someone, to suit into the other world. Having Mars to crash into Venus. It will be devastated by difficulties. I tried and failed.

After attempts, giving up may seem easy but there is a price to pay. leaving someone is also not an easy task to take. is like suffering from losing a family member which has pass away or throwing away something still in very good working condition which you really need it very much. The feeling of heart pain is undeniable. But because we cannot accept the way we think from the first beginning, tried to change but failed and the only solution to this is end it up. We have no choice but to accept the fact.

After all this is another turning point of life, live and get on. We have more challenge ahead putting down the past but not to forget it. Its a new knowledge gain. Learn from our mistake and it will be the better next time round. Instead of crying at the spilled milk, understand how it was being spilled and make sure we don't do it again.

This Saturday was a very long day indeed, 18 hour to be precise. spending my morning doing some recoverly job for my customer, His van was jammed at reverse gear and unable to move. After work, I pick up 'classmate' because she wanted to buy a new Tarot deck and I recommended her to the bookshop I brought mine. So unfortunately, it was all sold out! Well, maybe her old Tarot deck doesn't need a partner.

While on the way to town, we arranged to meet Johnson over at marina square for him shopping spree. We hang around there for a very long time, and causes my carpark fee to turn up to 11 dollar! Setting my highest record in carpark charges in a day with a total charges of 14 dollar adding the fee at The Cathay. We shop, eat and slack there all from afternoon till night. After that we greet good bye to Johnson and company and headed for some 'romantic' at varies places.

It was a night of craps and stupid laughter, we spend 5 nonsense hour laughing for our own stupidity but it was fun! LOL

Back to reality, I drove classmate home to face her music, and end up, radio wasn't there. Lucky! But not forever, radio will always be there. Change channel is the best choice. We both reach home at 530am this morning.

Hmm, this wasn't a good post. many thoughts but indescribable.

Last Saturday was very bad at the beginning of it, most about work, and I was very piss off with some stuff, but luckily next half of the day was brighten up by my dear best friend, and I'm so surprise she smsed me to meet, I would say, God gave mercy! Sending me light to my soul, and I no longer feel depressed after meeting her. We had a long day together, eating dinner? no! lunch for me. maybe dinner too.. oh whatever, and walk around abit at the newly open Tampines One. Saying about this, I LOVE THE FOOD at the Groument Japanese Food (is that the way it's called?). Food there wasn't cheap but affortable atleast. But it's nice!

After that we shop around abit and headed to a place I always wanted to visit, The marina @ keppel Bay. We had a little chat over there, walk around and decided to head home.

But, wait! this is not the end. While heading home we suddenly have this idea to go malaysia, I sent her home, grab the passport and headed down for some JAM! which is my dear unexpectation! Is there really such word in english? Only she knows...

Jam for an hour and pump some 40 ringgit of petrol and a car wash and headed home again!

Hold on. hold on, hold on! Is not the end yet, just about to turn in, suddenly i heard, "what is next!" and of cause, its supper time!

We headed for supper and home sweet home! FINALLY!! But thanks to you, I had a very happy evening. Can't help for me to say this, I LOVE YOU..... MUACK! (I would never have a chance to say it personally so it should be fine here.)