What Should I do?
As we grow older, there are many stages of difficulty we have to overcome. From trying to pass every exam in school to getting ready to start a family. Many time these decision will make us succeed or failure. Somehow these decision is always hard to decide...
Right now, I'm moving toward an important decision, waiting for me to decide, any move will cause a major directional change to my life. What should I do?
Currently i am working for a company for about 2 years, from a Motor insurance admin officer to resale vehicle sales assistant to a vehicle rental fleet operator. Staying in the company is rather enjoying but with acceptable pay and a vehicle for transport which benefit me the most, nevertheless, being in this company is what many people will envy.
However. for my character, working in a same environment for a long period of time will die down my interest, feeling restless everyday right after I step in to my work place. Doing the same things one after another make me get bored on job. Now nothing is motivating me to move on. I can't move on and I can't survive for long. Thought of leaving the company is strong, its even stronger when I heard the news of some of my close friends cum colleague have the intention of leaving too. What should I do?
Recently, one of my friend invited me to his new business, a partnership of 4. We are starting something I had never done before, it is a fresh business idea but also a stress producer. By making me do somethings I never have confident that I will do it well. Getting in to this investment making me think if this will be a right choice I had just made. Moving toward an unknown world, fighting with enemy I never see before, even weapons I had never touch on. Will I survive this battle? if not, what should I do?
All this problem is running in my mind everyday, every hour every minute. Making any decision now will highly affect my way of living in the future, how should i plot my chess, how to move and what to move.
This is a stage of life where changes have to be made, might even have to change the way I behave and live. No more playful no more laziness. etc..
I urgently in need of advice. People! What should I do?
1/09/2010 01:59:00 AM
Happy Birthday to Xiao Xin!~ Happy Bday to you~~
i will blog.... but let it be later.. lazy now.. n lost of words... wait till my mood build up thn the story will begin...
12/14/2009 11:50:00 PM
Life
Hey boys and girls, ladies and gentlemen! finally, 3 months pass and once again! I am here to input my next entry.
Time flies! It has been 3 months after my last entry. I was so lazy to blog and I might as well don't even care about blogging anymore. But today, I feel like doing so. Getting back to my usual routine after doing something different for 3 months. That was some thing I have not done before and finally I felt how many people feel. The meaning of love and losing.
This, as everyone knew it, was not as easy as anyone can see from the outside, being in a relationship is totally different matter of being with friends amongst us. Because we care for our love ones, things will ended up into a quarrel if we cannot get a common understanding. But for friend, even if we think our friend has a different point of view we just take it as, 'well I guess that you'... Something that shouts YOU! (Thank Ms Ris)
Other than that, trying to intrude into your partner's world is another challenge we have to face. Everyone live in a different background if not so different way of thinking or idea. It might be OK for you to think this way, but it might not for the other party. Learning to give is important, learning to take is well more important. In order to give we must first learn how to take. When we gave too much and never felt the return the relationship will not work. So we have to understand how the other party had given in in and we should let them know that we are giving in, order for them to know.
I realize this but easy said then done. I'm still learning...
Also, Changing for someone you love will be difficult too. We have been living for more then a decade as what we are, including minor changes little by little, time after time realizing slowly, bit by bit then we change a little bit at a time until what we are today. Someone that we think this is what we suppose to be. But because of someone we love, we wanted to change for someone, to suit into the other world. Having Mars to crash into Venus. It will be devastated by difficulties. I tried and failed.
After attempts, giving up may seem easy but there is a price to pay. leaving someone is also not an easy task to take. is like suffering from losing a family member which has pass away or throwing away something still in very good working condition which you really need it very much. The feeling of heart pain is undeniable. But because we cannot accept the way we think from the first beginning, tried to change but failed and the only solution to this is end it up. We have no choice but to accept the fact.
After all this is another turning point of life, live and get on. We have more challenge ahead putting down the past but not to forget it. Its a new knowledge gain. Learn from our mistake and it will be the better next time round. Instead of crying at the spilled milk, understand how it was being spilled and make sure we don't do it again.
11/01/2009 01:48:00 AM
Am I A Good Boyfriend?
I guess I'm not a good boyfriend, I was too selfish just now while sending my dearest home, because I felt tried, I keep saying things I make her feel bad. I hope i will not do this again, I want my dearest to be the most happy, most fortunate girl ever.
Sorry dear, I really can't help but to say sorry again and again. I felt that I have not being good. I felt that I did not care you enough, I should have understand you more and I tried very hard to avoid already as I hate that silence punishment, I felt very sad when dear didn't talk to me. But, if dear don't like me to say sorry then I'll will try to improve, but please, no more silence ok?
Dear, in the whole world, so many people surrounding me, you treat me the best, you listen to me, being so good and nice. I felt that my decision was correct. Choosing you as my girlfriend was never a mistake. I really hope we could be together forever, so don't you ever doubt on it anymore. I LOVE YOU!
Well, I got a lot to say, but I wanted to call you soon, so KISS.
7/31/2009 12:08:00 AM
0033hrs, 22th July 2009
On the said day and time, I finally found someone. Or should I say,the one I found has accepted me?
It will be 7 days in a few min time and I have never thought of regretting it. I have never felt this way before, so easily cried over something I would have thought it to be silly before. I drop my tears 4 time in front of her. Look shameful, but that let me realise how much I am in love with her.
Yesterday, while reading her blog, I felt so touch about how much she loves me, so much that she was afraid of losing me, she was so silly to think of it that way, but that was how much I was afraid to lose her as well.
Well, so far I still love her very much, enjoying being together, and wish to be together forever! Will you being with me forever?
p/s: Sometime I feel that I am so blur, I'm so stupid. How can I don't know the answer to her question?
7/29/2009 12:16:00 AM
Enjoying my life with...
Hello guys, it a new entry again! Busy, busy, busy! For the past 14 days I have been busy enjoying my life, laughing, chilling somewhere cheap and good, sleeping in the car?(pure sleeping, if you might mistaken) and well getting to know someone more... We never had a dull moment for long, most of the time was spent happily.
I'm so happy and glad that you are with me and kept our life brighten with laughter, your unqiue laughter! Lame jokes, and our stupid behaviours. After knowing you more, I realise that you might be a better person and of cause this include your bad points. Well, that might be my own judgement, and you wouldn't agree to what have I said, but that is what I think. I believe and hope that you will be a good partner.
I'm not sure if you would accept this and all I could say is, by giving me a chance, I promise it would be many times better than your last. Well, at my side, I'm not sure as well. Although we have been through ups and downs, being with you seem to be very comfortable but whether this is what I need that is still a question unknown to me.
P/S: This is also the reason why we shouldn't meet next week. So that we could have some time alone, think of it a little, and then decide if this would work out.
7/06/2009 12:46:00 AM
Sleepless
Its 0018 hours now and don't feel sleepiness out of a sudden. Before this, was a farewell party organise by my father company, Index Credit P/L for the leaving of my sister from this company to study.
I was very tired just now as it was a very busy day for me, running up and down collecting and sending cars, travel the whole of Singapore today! Before the party start I knock into unconsciousness for a while and get my engine starts and get my butt up to buy some drinks to the event.
While event, I eat a little and feel full, and pick myself up a beer offer by my manager. Then, drank a few slip and started getting more and more sleepy. I feel so much needed to close my eye and sleep. But everyone was laughing, I have to hold myself up and go over the event.
Finally, everyone is a bit drunk, and soon it time to pack, and of cause it's time to go home! But my dear sister was dragging, saying her last good bye to all of them, I was feeling a bit frustrated but endured. Just hope I could get home sooner.
But after reaching home, showered, and bed time! But CAN'T sleep!! What happen? tossed around a few time, my nose are blocked, and got no choice but to run to garb my nose spray. After that I set at my living room with my eye bigger then the night cat. I was so awake and decided to go down for a car wash.
Today was totally full of event! Unforeseen event! Luckily today has pass, time for me to rest and look forward for tomorrow a brand new day ahead! Good night everyone!
7/01/2009 12:18:00 AM
Telepathy?
Telepathy (Greek τηλε, tele meaning "distant" and πάθεια, patheia meaning "to be affected by",[2]) refers to the transfer of mental information, such as thoughts, ideas or emotions between individuals by means other than the five classical senses (See Psi).
-Wikipedia
Are there really telepathy? If someone who have telepathy does s/he read everyone' mind or just a selective number of people? In what circumstances will someone have telepathy?
Strange, strange, strange! Recently, I felt telepathy! From someone I'm very close with. We seem to think something, do something and even say something altogether. Just like how twins do things together as what people says. Is this real telepathy? Or just that we have strong rapport?
As according to psychology, rapport is built but matching body language, breathing and eye contact. This might explain a little but what if, we can got in-sync even on the MSN, which none of the rapport building media was available.
Maybe, that's really telepathy. Somehow paranormal yet surprising. Just found out that this phenomenon wasn't created recently, after some conversation I found out that even from the past, before we are so close maybe not even met, we would do some things alike,most of it are little stuff and habits.
Why or how could this happen? My head is spinning, I'm reading up on telepathy, parapsychology and some other relevant information but not much knowledge gain. Or could it be that we are so in common, so much so that we are almost twins! Or are we twins? Got to ask my parent about it! HAHA!
Well, that is interesting, fun too, and we are getting the hang of it, sometime, we don't even have to speak to understand. But, most of the time, saying something together.
Hmm.... Could this be my perfect match?
6/28/2009 11:52:00 PM
Different Between Both
Recently, I met a friend, very nice and cute person which has something in common with someone I know for many years, both of them was cute and nice, but one a little bit childish than other. Though they have something in common, but both are equally good. According to the 80/20 rule of Life. Which present 80 percent of good and 20 percent of not good. But somehow, after getting along with one, I sort of getting sick of the other. How could this be happening?
Let me bring you through some of the following differences,
1. Speed of dressing up
2. Life experience
3. Time management
4. Decision making
5. Financial management
6. Intelligent (street smart)
7. Environment conscious
8. Sports
9. Physical Build
10. Idea of Relationship
11. Maybe some home making skills?
Those are some of the differences, which is quite a handful if it. Some are good to have and some are not. But, somehow, one is better than the other. In term of being a better person. But I found that there is also things in common in them. Well, I will make this a secret as I was tired of thinking so hard at this hour. I get along with them very well, and with both while hanging out with each of them we usually create super rapport. Thinking things alike, doing things alike. Maybe that is why, I have a sense of liking toward them. But luckily, I got things sorted out recently, thanks to a good friend of mine. Well, hope I really sorted thing correctly, and let time be my witness.
P/S: Have been slacking a lot recently, a target made by myself to study and understand fully how Forex works at the end of the month seem very far fetch. I might have to extent my goal a month ahead. Hopefully, I could making some windfall out of it within this year.
P/P/S: Well, other than those problem above, life this month was full of spending. I am financially weak now! Which is very bad, it's just the mid of this month! Oh, God! What can I do?
6/20/2009 12:10:00 AM
A Long Day Out
This Saturday was a very long day indeed, 18 hour to be precise. spending my morning doing some recoverly job for my customer, His van was jammed at reverse gear and unable to move. After work, I pick up 'classmate' because she wanted to buy a new Tarot deck and I recommended her to the bookshop I brought mine. So unfortunately, it was all sold out! Well, maybe her old Tarot deck doesn't need a partner.
While on the way to town, we arranged to meet Johnson over at marina square for him shopping spree. We hang around there for a very long time, and causes my carpark fee to turn up to 11 dollar! Setting my highest record in carpark charges in a day with a total charges of 14 dollar adding the fee at The Cathay. We shop, eat and slack there all from afternoon till night. After that we greet good bye to Johnson and company and headed for some 'romantic' at varies places.
It was a night of craps and stupid laughter, we spend 5 nonsense hour laughing for our own stupidity but it was fun! LOL
Back to reality, I drove classmate home to face her music, and end up, radio wasn't there. Lucky! But not forever, radio will always be there. Change channel is the best choice. We both reach home at 530am this morning.
Hmm, this wasn't a good post. many thoughts but indescribable.
6/08/2009 12:32:00 AM
